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I guess you can say I’m alive, not kicking though, but alive…

I’m pretty sure I write this for my eyes only, but one day maybe someone stubbles onto it and find it of a strange interest and decides to read some more – well, then I’m sorry to disappoint, but there is not much more…

I’m tired of life, the way things goes, the way dreams get shattered, the way the nice solid platform I had build my life upon suddenly turned into a wild ride down the river instead of sitting on dry land.. 😦

I can’t life up to my friends, my self, my husband (no particular order, just the first word in my head went in…), I have a love and feel for a place I can’t visit, or work with, or anything…
My website is near dead, I have had little feel/time to spend on it, I have had to think and breath the stupid house project in Norway for way to long, and as soon as things are going bad I break down more or less.

I can’t manage to keep in touch with friends, I hate that, but it is just so damn hard to start write as I know I would most likely end up take all my frustration and bad feelings on to those emails and I don’t want to push that down into the throats of my friends.
They deserve so much better.

I can’t do much more with the house, the drawings is as they are, it is a new weekend, we are stuck in Norway, nothing will happen till earliest Monday morning, but I have very much doubt even that day will be good.

Tore and I are mad at so many people, but the worst is some people over in Sweden that owe us money for a translation job Tore did for them in October 2005 and that we yet have to receive payment for.
In the beginning we got lot of promises, no a days, we get nothing, nobody answer our emails, no one pay up, and we feel like they treat us real real real bad.

It shouldn’t be like this, one should be able to trust people, and it just makes me so mad to think about how they cheated us. 😦

But at least, we are both alive, Tore and me, still friends, husband and wife, we care for each other, we argue, we fight, we cry, we smile, we enjoy life, we hate life, but we are together, and that is very very very important!!

And, the days we stand together, those are the days no one can take us down!!
Not even those at the stupid Swedish company that don’t want to pay for the job we did!!

So, instead of wasting money and time sitting on an expansive dial-up line here in Norway, I will go see if my friend gmax still likes me… LOL

All the best wishes


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