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We live as we learn – or was that the other way around… ;-)


Today been a happy and a sad day. First I finally got two packages I been waiting for ages on, containing a total of 18 glass plate negatives where at least 17 of them is from the Cripple Creek district, the 18th I’m a little unsure of.

And, best of all, seller had marked them as antiques, which they are, but that lead the Customs in Norway contact me and from that I learned about a rule saying that if the items are over 100 years old, we only get to have to pay the sale tax (time being that is 25%) of 20% of the value of the items, normally we get the tax on the whole amount including the shipping… 😦

Which, in this case was a real treat, as I saved a whole lot of money!! Thankfully! And, I learned a useful thing for future buys, even better! πŸ™‚

Now, the sad thing, my husband’s brother – Steinar is his name – has been in the hospital for about a month now, went in for a routine operation, got real ill and is in a respirator now, and have turned again from being better to go worse second time around.

The Doctor came to us on our visit today to give us an update and so on, and he also mention that we have to take into consideration what will happen if Steinar is not improving.

Every day in that bed is not a good thing, and we where told that in case his vital organs give in, hearth, lung, kidneys, they have decided to not do anything out of respect for Steinar.

As the doctor said, if he turns that bad under this very controlled environments, it is just sign from the body that “leave me alone” and we should respect that.

It is hard to learn, but it is also part of life, and so far, they are doing all they can for him, and we are very grateful for that. But it was clear he was not in a good shape today, and not sure he knew we where there or not.

Last time, while sleeping due to the induced Coma, he looked at peace and great if looking beyond all the tubes and everything, today he looked real sick. 😦

So yes, we all learn as we live, or was that living as we learn?


Take care

Categories: Misc, The District

How life can be stale yet move on…


It been nearly a year since my last Blog entry, I have not had the best year where I am located and mentally, but,Β  when looking back, I have had a great year for my education of the Cripple Creek District in Colorado, USA!

So many things I have been able to get hold of in terms of photographs and such! And, the last month I have got hold of – at quite a big expense though 😦 sadly enough, but it had to be done – quite many glass negatives! πŸ™‚

And, last night, I won a view where a mine I lost a picture of just minutes into the year of 2007 was much better viewed on the one I won then the one I lost! That was great, and, it did not cost me a leg and a arm either! πŸ™‚
In fact, with the shipping to Norway of that and the 9 other views, this particular view of a area and a mine called Caledonia Mine costs me “only” US$ 63,41 which for what I have had to pay over the years for various views up into the hundredths of dollars is quite a great deal!
Made me real happy!!
Can’t remember what I lost the other view for though… I just remember that view was taken looking more north from across Squaw Gulch, the south side so to speak, and the view from last night is looking more east, not showing Squaw Gulch at all, but I see partly the roadbed of the Florence & Cripple Creek up on a hill at left.

So, while I do feel life is standing still, stale, and nothing good really happens, and life is taking a bad turn all the time around me, in terms of my ability and chances to learn about the history of the Cripple Creek District through images, that really has not stood still at all, and I feel blessed I am able to put aside some money each month to pursue this very important part of my life, what I live and bread for, what keeps me going when things are hard here we live…

The History of the “Greatest Gold Camp on Earth” is still filled with mysteries, hopefully, I will be able to still keep on collecting and learning parts of them over the years to come!

Best wishes

Categories: Misc, The District

Fifty three weeks ago


Clearly I’m no big user of this blog thingy, and now that I’ve lost the direct blog part from my web site provider I’ve been forced into using another service.

Other then that, life is pretty much hell like it been for ages.

I love my husband, no doubt about that, which makes it extremely hard just to give up and walk away, but I sense my resources are draining away, fast now a days.

Fifty three weeks ago, Friday the 9th of October 2009 was the day Tore, my husband, ended up in the hospital with a severe infection who lead to the death of his left foot – one should have imagined that ordeal to be enough.

But, now, 53 weeks later, 52 weeks last week, he still do his same old crap to try to mess his own life up so much that he ends up there again…

It is like he needs/want to have a mummy taking care of him, and in order to gain that he has to mess him self up so bad that others are forced to take care of him. Forced to look after him, to make sure he eats, sleeps and do all the stuff he says he wants to do…

I’m on a loosing end here, I fight hard, long, awful for what I believe in and for what I feel, I do stuff no one should have to do, I even try violence and harsh words to try help Tore see him self.

But every fucking time it is like after a short while the devil in him surface and speaks directly to the devil in my and temp and drag and do every thing he can to let the ass in my take charge and make me do stupid things.

I so wish I could just walk away, but how ca I walk away from a man so lost in him self, so alone, no-one wants to deal with him, no friends anymore, they all turned they’re backs on him his family except a somewhat mentally challenged brother don’t want to deal with him…

How can I walk away from a guy crying for help, claiming he needs help, my help?Β  Professional help don’t seem to work either, been like this for ages, and now a weekly sessions has turned into one each 3rd week…

Help, I just need help, I can’t deal much longer, my energy level is dropping way below safety I feel.



Categories: Misc

A few words to update

Hi all,

The time since my last post been a time of stress, happy days, bad days, very bad days, and good days.

Tore been magnificent with his wish to get up on his feet again and walk around, but been fighting like hell to avoid to have to think for him self and stand up and decide what he wants for him self and work for that, rather have a fight with me so he can have things told him, rather then think it out him self what he wants…

But, on the other hand, he been so wonderful, energetic, full of wish to prove him self coming to the fact of just walking around on two feet again.

Which he does, beautifully really!! πŸ™‚

He can move with no crutches to aid him, walks steps/stairs like we normally do, he can walk on snow, uneven ground (not perfect, but he gets around), he been out on a skitrip for like ten minutes before he said hello to the snow.
He been showing great will and power – and it has paid off!

We are now home for good, he has all the needed knowledge with his new leg/foot to be able to get his life back on track – the only problem is that he is not willing to put his mouth where his actions are, or his actions where his mouth is…

Time will tell how it ends, between him and me it seems like a black hole, but I still love him and work my ass of to find ways to survive.

There you have the very short version. πŸ™‚


Categories: Misc

13th of January 2010 – A new Foot


For those who might read and follows the story around my husband Tore and his “search” for a new left foot and part leg, the latest news are now in, and we have a new foot and leg right now standing in the room!! πŸ™‚

Last Wednesday, the 6th of January they decided down here at Bakke Rehabilitation Center that Tore’s leg and his wound there should be able to survive a casting in plaster so they could start build his first prosthetic leg/foot.
Today the big day was finally here where he was to see, feel, try on his new foot/leg – and he been very anxious the past few days and kinda been counting down the hours in his head.

So, around ten o’clock this morning (Norway time) Tore was at the office of the physiotherapist that is assigned to him here at Bakke.
The orthopedist engineer was also there, and he took and open a big bag where Tore’s new foot was inside of it! It looked strange, large, wrongly built/dimensioned as it felt rather short, very wide at the top where the rest of the leg is to be put inside, skin colored at top, a piece looking like a foot in skin color in bottom, but rest was steel tubes and moving pieces to allow for angles and movement of the foot.
Strange feel – how Tore felt I don’t know.

It was told that this is not heavier then the foot he lost, it did feel heavier, Tore also said that when it was on his
body and not just holding it – but the engineer claimed it not to be. We know for a fact Tore lost 2,3kg from one day to the other with only the surgery and amputation in between – so we have the actually weight loss. πŸ™‚

There was lot of talk, showing, stuff – but then the foot was clicked on, and Tore was given a “preachers chair” on wheels to hold on to when he for the first time in 6 weeks once again stood on two feet!!
Lovely sight, must been wonderful and weird for him I imagined.

This evening, 6 weeks ago was the last time Tore took some walk around on his two feet, now, at least for a few minutes today, he could walk around again – that is magic nearly! πŸ™‚
Six weeks ago he could walk without support, now he needs support and training, but in maybe 6 more weeks that might not be needed anymore maybe…
It’s wonderful – but life will not go back to where it was.

It is a new life, new challenges, new lot of stuff – but, he has a foot now, and while only few minutes every day is allowed to use that foot to train up and allow the skin to adjust and heal for the task ahead of allowing tore to walk around again, we will get there!

I’m proud of my husband, it is not the brave wonderful man I saw near end of last year – but I see a man still struggling to make the best he can to get on his feet again, and a man a little more scared then the other, but that also means most likely more safe then the other.
Which is good.

Tore has maybe walked 20-30 meters today, among those maybe around 10-15 meters backward, and everyone seem to think he did great – which I find great!!

Tomorrow exercise starts up with a few more things on his feet, maybe Friday night if body is OK with the foot we will be allowed to do a few more exercises, including the evening by our self.
Only time will tell, but for now – a great day!

For me too, I got a package today with stuff from a seller in Colorado with some great Victor photographs – wonderful, both Tore and me got presents today… πŸ™‚

Till next time, take care


Categories: Misc